"I remember the days of old; I meditate on all thy works; I muse on the work of thy hands." - Psalm 143:5

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Poetry Morning – Seamless


I was listening online this morning to HARBOUR LIVE (you should listen!), my friend and fellow blogger Tony Alicea’s Church (read his blog here) and got inspired to write this poem. I hope it blesses you! – Jay


Standing in awe of you
Desperate for you
I need more
I hunger for more
More than my heart can hold
More than my mind can imagine
Focused on you
Lost in you
Until all is seamless
between us

Jay Cookingham June 23, 2011

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Wednesday, June 22, 2011

My Prayer…for You



So many of you have asked me to pray for you lately and I do take that seriously. This morning as I was traveling to work this prayer came to me…I hope it encourages you today. Blessings, Jay

Father, hold my brothers and sisters today. Hold them in your mercy, in your grace and your strength. Clear their vision, lift their heads and tighten their grip on you. Surround them, saturate and fill them with your love. Intensify their hope, strengthen their faith and overlap everything with your joy.

Open their spirits to you, to your plans and your desires for them. Help them embrace the wondrous journey with you in ways they once thought impossible. Open their hearts and draw out the gifts, the abilities and talents that you have given them. Erase the pain of regret and past failures and in its place plant deep the power of your purposes for them.

In all of this let your name be know and praised...for you are a great God.

In Jesus name....Amen!


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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Repost Madness - Carry

There is so much happening in my life right now that Soulfari is not getting the attention that it “deserves”. I so want to share what is happening with you all but…it is not time, not yet. So, since my family won’t be going to Cape Hatteras for vacation this summer (sniff) I thought I “carry” a old post from last May (when I was in Hatteras) to today’s post. Plus, what God spoke to me that day still speaks to me where I am…I hope it does the same for you. Blessings, Jay

“And He said, My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest. (15) And he said to Him, If Your presence does not go with me, do not carry us up from here.” Exodus 33:14-15

It is somewhat risky to go into the ocean alone, especially here at Hatteras. The waves can take you in for a wild ride or carry far out to sea. So we have a buddy system in place to make sure that people don’t go solo in the ocean waves. That buddy system puts parental units somewhat at ease but I also think it’s a great system for life.

After 40+ years of following Father God I have learned this lesson (sometimes the hard way) that the success of the next step depends entirely on Him going with me. That Moses-like attitude has been and continues to be my response to His invitation and promise. Here are the same two verses in the Message Bible. I like its bluntness expression.

GOD said, “My presence will go with you. I'll see the journey to the end.”
Moses said, “If your presence doesn't take the lead here, call this trip off right now.”

That’s where I am in my life right now…I need Him to take the lead daily or lets’ call the whole leg of this journey off right now. It is not worth it to try to find shortcuts or easier pathways, the cost is too great. When He goes with me His presence carries me, sustains me and identifies me as one of His kids.
We have another saying here…”Never turn your back on the ocean.” If you do you might just get hit by a big wave and have the summer vacation knocked right out of you! The connecting thought here is if He’s not coming with me…perhaps my back has changed positions. No, I need to face Him, constantly looking into His eyes for the way to follow.
That way, I know He’s coming “with” me…

What about you? Is there something I can help you “carry” in prayer?

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Poetically Expressing Myself - Daylight



I chew on the crust of a
broken dream.
Trying to follow the crumbs
back to the beginning.

When did it become a fairy tale?
A fable?
A tall tale of adventure in the woods,
lost and alone,
instead of revelation?

I face the wolf of failure
with an axe of my own.
It is not a quick end but it is
quick enough.

I see with daylight
in my vision.
Bringing this dream to
an end.

Jay Cookingham 6-17-2011


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Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Bad Sheep Time – Something Smelly

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The Bad Boys are back bringing their own brand of "cheer" to my mundane day. Sit back and enjoy...I hope!


bad sheep no. 40


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Sunday, June 12, 2011

Sunday Blessings


Just wanted to share a simple Celtic prayer this Sunday.

If there is righteousness in the heart
If there is righteousness in the heart,
there will be beauty in the character.
If there is beauty in the character,
there will be harmony in the home.
If there is harmony in the home,
there will be order in the nation.
If there is order in the celtic_crossgnation,
there will be peace in the world.
So let it be

Praying that your week ahead is filled with His love and mercy! …Blessings, Jay


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Wednesday, June 8, 2011

What am I doing here? – God’s answer


You can read part one here

What am I doing here?

The answer came to me over the course of a few days, maybe because I’m a little slow or perhaps God knew how to reach me (I’m banking on the latter).

“What are we doing here?” (Notice how I changed the question a bit, sly dog that I am) I asked my wife as we were sitting on the back deck. Could we, should we, move…to North Carolina…to Florida? Will the situation we find ourselves in…force that decision? We discussed a few options, tossed around a couple of ideas and discovered it really wasn’t a question of geography but it did concern our position.

After a while I blurted out this…

“I just don’t want to waste anymore time…or go through the motions…if we are going to stay that let’s stay with a purpose! I have such an ache to be free, to help others be free but what does that really mean anymore?”

Can you say conflicted? Later that night God provided the answer through a single word…the word?


Lately when I look towards the horizon, I’m longing for rescue, for deliverance, for a way out. My hankerings, my yen, my desires, my pining, although honest expressions; were not where my heart and soul should be.

“How lovely is your dwelling place, LORD Almighty! (2) My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.” Psalm 84:1-2

My crying was centered on me, not for a deeper relationship with my God. I mean, when was the last time I was so hungry for His presence that I almost fainted? Longing for freedom isn’t wrong…it’s just not the best use of my heart. No, the best is to be with Him, to long for communion with my King, my savior…my friend.

So, in the midst of a difficult battle I find myself longing, not for release (although I would welcome that) but for relationship on a whole new level.

What am I doing here?

I’m here for Him…

“Our natural will is to have God, and the good will of God is to have us, and we may never cease willing or longing for God until we have him in the fullness of joy.” - Blessed Julian of Norwich


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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

What am I Doing Here?


MP900430553 God often takes a course for accomplishing His purposes directly contrary to what our narrow views would prescribe. He brings a death upon our feelings, wishes, and prospects when He is about to give us the desire of our hearts.
- John Newton

The question above represents weeks of deep reflection and intense battle (is there any other kind?). The conflict surrounding my family right now seems unrelated to that question, yet…I wonder.

I can’t share with you right now what that struggle is (possibly on the other side) but I can share this. This battle is not about my marriage, my kids or my health (although all those elements of my life have been challenged during this time). This particular conflict is a huge threat and it saps my energy some days and makes me angry at the enemy on most days. However, this post is not really about struggle…back to the question.

What am I doing here?

The Father first posed this question when I was laid up with a hurt foot a few weeks ago. (It’s much better, thank you). He was using this question to stir me up, to mess with me a bit. I have to admit; I strained for an answer…one I hoped that at least “sounded” spiritual! What I found out during this reflection is that I was tired, not physically but tired of the status quo-ness that had crept into my spirit. I saw that I was allowing a small picture of God to ruin my view on life and my walk with Him.

Honestly, I didn’t want God to deal with me on this; after all…I was in a battle…a fight that was occupying all my attention. Shouldn’t He be concentrating on a way out for me?

What am I doing here?

God’s answer next time…

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Monday, June 6, 2011



Water, water, every where, Nor any drop to drink. - The Rime of the Ancient Mariner

I'm a few days late on this one but fellow blogger Matt Windley (read his blog here) is trying to raise money for charity:water. His goal...to raise $1,000,000 in the month of June! So head on over to his blog and pray about what you can do for such a powerful cause. Here’s the link to his charity:water site

I remember growing up in rural New York, we lived over an auction house and it was not quite a home. We had no inside plumbing…no bathroom, no shower, not even a sink! I have many memories of going outside to a well pump to fill buckets of water for cooking and bathing. Hard, yes...but at least my water was safe to drink. 42,000 people die every week for reasons clean water could help cure. 90% are children. Please, please pray and respond as God leads.



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