Signs and Wonderings


The Lord will work out his plans for my life—for your the-christmas-star2faithful love, O Lord, endures forever. Don’t abandon me, for you made me. Psalm 138:8

It’s an emotional day for me. I feel raw and exposed…like chafed skin from being outside in the cold wind. Please forgive me if I wander as I wonder through this post, it is one of those unedited moments that I would like to share. I promise I will eventually get to a point…you’re going to have to trust me on that one.

It is always difficult to know just how much to reveal in a blog post, how much to release to the wind of the internet and what to expect after one does so. I started this blog to answer a call from Father God and to hopefully encourage people along the way. The things I have shared about my life and my journey with Jesus have been honest and sincere…but it leaves me wanting more. I feel like I know many of you even though we have never met. You have been kind with your comments and your observations…in short; you have been a major encouragement to me. Still…it leaves me wanting more (yes, I realize that I repeated myself) and I’m at a loss at how to make that happen.

I am a sit down, let’s talk face-to-face kind of person…I like contact, and yes…I’m a hugger. It’s one way I believe that I can show that I am a real person not just an internet blogging personality. I guess what I’m saying is this…I hope you believe that I am real.

None of us expose everything online (and we shouldn’t) but I want you to know that everything I share is from my heart…truly.

In 15 days I expect to take a major direction change in my life or…find out that I misheard God…sounds heavy doesn’t it? I will admit that it feels heavy at times and today particularly so. Why? Because I don’t know what that change of direction IS…not a clue, nada, zippo…how’s that for signs and wonders? It may be close to something I always wanted to do but I’m not sure. (Not ready to share that quite yet) I’m wondering where the signs are and that is the challenge, trusting in the author of my story. I came across something today that I wrote a while back and here is the point I promised you…it’s about the Christmas story…our story.

Christmastime is signs and wonders time. I believe there are angel songs still filling the sky with the promise of the Messiah, wishing for a human ear to receive the Good News. A grand story has swept us up in its plot and wishes for us to become more than bit players. It is an epic tale flowing from the heart of God, with a story line full of signs and wonders. A lost world, a lost people, needs redemption of cosmic proportion. Father God makes sure the world receives just that. A young woman gives birth to a child who would someday deliver her and all of humanity. Mix in angels, shepherds, wise men, an angry king, some roman soldiers, dreams and an escape to Egypt and you got a story for the ages. Christmas is a sign, an opening to join our story with this wondrous one, to stop being an understudy and get in the play.

The Father will work out the plans for my life…that I know and trust.
What about you?

Maybe there is a major (or minor step) step that God is asking of you, I would love to pray for you. I can’t sit down with you or send you gifts but I can do this…I can pray! You could share here or send to me in a private email here at

I be honored to pray with you. If you would love to go deeper than that, just ask for my phone number in the email and give me a call…praying over the phone is fine with me. I’m also on Skype…just look up Jay Cookingham and you’ll find me.

Blessings, Jay

“Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love.” -Hamilton Wright Mabie


Dusty Rayburn said…
As I studied through Experiencing God, I was reminded that God does not always lay out the entire road map...most often, He only gives us the direction of our next step.

Know you are being prayed for continuously as you take that next step. May God receive all the glory and may you and your family know Him more intimately in your journey.

I love you brother.
Jay Cookingham said…
Dusty, I know that to be true and I receive the wisdom that it is. Thanks for the prayers my brother, I love you as well.
S Etole said…
Our times are in His hands and I pray that you will be able to hear His voice as to which step to take.
MichaelDPerkins said…
Jay, I know in my heart you are real and not just a personality. I hope and pray that you know if you need prayer as well you can reach out to me.
Glynn Young said…
Father God, we lift up our brother Jay. He has much on his mind and his heart, most of all to honor, worship and serve you. His heart is heavy with expectation, and he's feeling raw, exposed, vulnerable. These are times when we are often most teachable, Father, so my prayer is that you teach him, comfort him, guide him forward in what you'd have him do. And use all of us, Father, to encourage him, pray with him, rejoice with him and worship with him. We are one with him.

In the name of your son, Jesus Christ, who was botn and died for us, amen.
Jay Cookingham said…
That was a wonderful prayer Bro'. I receive it in His name and I bless you for it. Thanks Glynn!
Jay Cookingham said…
Michael, I know I can depend on you to bro-nation is the best! Thanks Bro'
Jay Cookingham said…
Susan that is a great Psalm and I appreciate your kind words....bless you!
Mari-Anna said…
Thanks for teaching me about being open and honest even when you feel vulnerable and raw. I find myself a little bit in the same kind of situation...I am waiting for further directions, too. In some ways this advent season seems very appropriate! But God is in action and we just need to trust that in his time we'll know what we are supposed to do. Sometimes the waiting part is the most difficult. I pray that God gives you everything you need while you're waiting, extremely clear guidance when to take your first steps, and abundant joy & peace in the midst of everything!
Jay Cookingham said…
Those are both kind and wise words Mari-Anna. God indeed is on the move, in and through our lives. I believe that a position of waiting (even though it may be difficult) is one of worship.
Thank you for sharing your heart...I'll be praying for you as well. Blessings!
jasonS said…
Jay, you have blessed me with your honesty, openness, and friendship. I trust one day we will meet face-to-face before we spend eternity together. You encourage me more than you know. Praying for you and releasing all those blessings the Father has stored up for this moment in your life and for your family. He is showing you it's time and that you have to trust Him, and we stand in agreement that everything will work PERFECTLY according to His plan and righteousness.

Love and blessings, Jay. Thanks for being a true brother.
Jay Cookingham said…
I hoping we get to meet to bro', that would be a blast. Your encouragement means more to me than you realize and I'm grateful for your influence on my life. Bless you!
SandraHeskaKing said…
I love how you wander through your wonder. And I'm on the edge of my seat now waiting for the rest of the story. I so appreciate you, your openness, your encouragement. Holding you up in prayer.
Jay Cookingham said…
Thank you Sandra...I'm on the edge of my seat also! Thanks for the prayer, I do appreciate them!

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