Make it or Break it




Make it or break it - Resulting in great success or utter failure

Crossroads are peculiar, mirage like in their appearance, a flicker on the road of life. It’s my experience that crossroads are never least by us. I find myself at one such crossroad, straining to peek down each path, hoping to catch a glimpse of the right direction to follow.

No such luck, the mirage of the road leave no marker visible, it seems I must choose without the protection of a net. Is it a make it or break it moment? Sure feels like one.

My journey this year has had many successful moments. Highlights, one would think, that are leading me one way on that journey. Recently there have been some exciting road signs like having a daily radio spot on a local Christian radio station (This one). A long thought dead dream of a ministry opportunity may be resurrected soon. There are similar markers popping up daring me to walk a certain path...testing to see if I have the guts to go for it.

Then there’s the other dare...turn back and quit it all.

The utter failure possibility seems like a vulture circling at the juncture of the crossroad, just waiting to pick my bones clean. It may seem like I’m afraid to go down the path, that I’m afraid that I’ll fail in the pursuit of my dreams and what I feel I’m called to. No, I actually desire the opportunity to fail at it if need be, “to make it or break it” while I give it all I got. Fear of failure is not my problem in this case…then what is it?

I already feel like a failure.

It is hard to go forward when backwards seems your only option. The ability and the freedom to choose have been snatched from my hand by a financial collapse of the Cookingham economy. Every thing I have tried to do to stimulate the growth of our economy has failed. What right do I have to pursue calling, to run after a dream, when something else in my life continues to stagger? I don’t think I do…I forfeited my right with my failure.

Have I?

I didn’t write this morning to have you read and feel sorry for me; I actually debated keeping the above paragraph in this post. I wrote about my struggle because I believe many of us face the same decision this morning. Do we quit…or go on?

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. And, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. - Lucas Scot

This is what the LORD says: "Stop at the crossroads and look around. Ask for the old, godly way, and walk in it. Travel its path, and you will find rest for your souls. But you reply, 'No, that's not the road we want!' Jeremiah 6:16 NLT

We must stop, for however long it takes, and look for the way…His way. Failure and success do not define us, they may mark us or even scar us but only the Father defines who we really are. Failures will try to rob us; success will try to blur our character, these are the unknowns that threaten us with deadly consequences.

We must go on…we must stay hungry

There are choices to make, dreams to pursue, plans to decide on…crossroads…always crossroads. The journey of choices is never alone, the Father calls to come follow the way He has for us.

“‘My food,’ said Jesus, ‘is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work’” John 4:34

Can you relate to being at crossroad…how can I pray for you?


Floyd Samons said…
I hear you Jay. I've been there too many times to recount. I'm praying for you, for God to reveal the path in which He wants you to take. I also believe your failures might be summed up in different terms. The obstacles we face are usually the ones that God designs to teach us wisdom and perseverance. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all the other things will be added unto you... just not maybe today...

Thanks for sharing your heart brother. You're not alone, we walk as family...
Jay Cookingham said…
I appreciate the encouragement bro'. The Father is totally in control and I believe everything I'm struggling with is for a purpose. Bless ya!
Dusty Rayburn said…
Crossroads can be difficult times. Especially when we are feeling the burden of other troubles.

Lifting you up as you pause at the crossroads. May your Hope in Him be your guide. May your eyes focus on the unseen and eternal and not be blinded by what is seen here in the temporary.

As for me, ... I have just taken on the privilege of teaching a Bible study class. The ages of the class as well as the family situations span the spectrum. I can't describe it as a crossroads, as I have already begun the journey... but I can definitely use the prayer.
Jay Cookingham said…
Dusty I appreciate the support, it means a lot. As for the new class (so cool BTW) I know the group of people gathered will hear a heart bearing the image of our Father...I'm sure it will be a blessing. Praying for you bro'!
jasonS said…
I feel those same impulses to give it up (on certain things) because the pressure seems so great. It just seems easier or like the only option, but His word makes all the difference. When He speaks, it silences our enemy. He lifts His voice, the earth melts. Praying with you and for you brother. Love and blessings...
Jay Cookingham said…
Yes and yes my brother, when He speaks we know which way to follow! Thanks, Jason!
Joanne Norton said…
Crossroading can be a heart-scarer. Our goals and motives and plans-of-life suddenly hit the mix. What do we do? Which direction can we go? Often, all we can do is wait [at a stop sign posted by our Lord], seek Him, wait quietly and cautiously. THEN, when the direction is dropped in, we have the freedom to move ahead with total freedom and no concern re: our permission. BUT some of us sure have trouble "waiting"... b/c we are "runners". I'm trying to revise my life as I get older... and older.... and older. Maybe someday...
Jay Cookingham said…
I can totally understand Joanne...I tend to want to be ahead of the curve also. Learning my lesson still. Thanks Joanne!

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