"I remember the days of old; I meditate on all thy works; I muse on the work of thy hands." - Psalm 143:5

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Call Me

rotary-cell-phone “Yes, the Lord hears the good man when he calls to Him for help, and saves him out of all his troubles. The Lord is close to those whose heart is breaking; He rescues those who are humbly sorry for their sins. The good man does not escape all troubles - he has them, too. But the Lord helps him in each and every one.” Psalms 34:17-19

This past weekend I gave up…

On a long walk in the woods near my home, I poured out my heart to God and asked hard, serious questions. For many years I have felt that I was called to write, speak and do whatever to encourage men to be stronger husbands and dads. Lately I have been concerned about the impact of that calling…wondering if I was making any at all. The personal price seemed out of proportion compared to results or effectiveness and I was growing weary of it.

So, it was decided…I would tell God it was over…that I was done. I wouldn’t write anymore, I would turn down the speaking engagements…see ya later dream! Then I slowed down my pace (I was stomping before this) and fell silent. In the silence I heard God ask me this question.

What do you need?

Without hesitation (surprising myself in the process) I said out loud that I would need to someone to call me TODAY and tell me not to quit…not to give up. That will do for me, I added.

The rest of the walk was finished in silence and I returned home to pay bills…always a sure fired pick me up! It wasn’t long (about 30 min) that I receive a phone call from a dear friend and brother. He felt that God wanted him to call me, to encourage me not to give up on what God asking me to do. His words were profound, penetrating and full of kindness. I so appreciated his sensitivity to the Holy Spirit’s push to call me, it was an amazing God moment. My friend went on to affirm the details of that call but honestly…I didn’t need those words (it was still nice to hear them though!). I knew in my spirit when the phone rang that God had already answered my need.

So, I am going forward, trying to keep my eyes on the Master and not the results beyond my control any way. He knew what I needed before I asked…but He asked anyway…that’s the way He loves.

He’s asking you too… What do you need?

Peace,
Jay

“Though our feelings come and go, God’s love for us does not.” - C.S. Lewis

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