It’s an emotional day for me. I feel raw and exposed…like chafed skin from being outside in the cold wind. Please forgive me if I wander as I wonder through this post, it is one of those unedited moments that I would like to share. I promise I will eventually get to a point…you’re going to have to trust me on that one.
It is always difficult to know just how much to reveal in a blog post, how much to release to the wind of the internet and what to expect after one does so. I started this blog to answer a call from Father God and to hopefully encourage people along the way. The things I have shared about my life and my journey with Jesus have been honest and sincere…but it leaves me wanting more. I feel like I know many of you even though we have never met. You have been kind with your comments and your observations…in short; you have been a major encouragement to me. Still…it leaves me wanting more (yes, I realize that I repeated myself) and I’m at a loss at how to make that happen.
I am a sit down, let’s talk face-to-face kind of person…I like contact, and yes…I’m a hugger. It’s one way I believe that I can show that I am a real person not just an internet blogging personality. I guess what I’m saying is this…I hope you believe that I am real.
None of us expose everything online (and we shouldn’t) but I want you to know that everything I share is from my heart…truly.
In 15 days I expect to take a major direction change in my life or…find out that I misheard God…sounds heavy doesn’t it? I will admit that it feels heavy at times and today particularly so. Why? Because I don’t know what that change of direction IS…not a clue, nada, zippo…how’s that for signs and wonders? It may be close to something I always wanted to do but I’m not sure. (Not ready to share that quite yet) I’m wondering where the signs are and that is the challenge, trusting in the author of my story. I came across something today that I wrote a while back and here is the point I promised you…it’s about the Christmas story…our story.
Christmastime is signs and wonders time. I believe there are angel songs still filling the sky with the promise of the Messiah, wishing for a human ear to receive the Good News. A grand story has swept us up in its plot and wishes for us to become more than bit players. It is an epic tale flowing from the heart of God, with a story line full of signs and wonders. A lost world, a lost people, needs redemption of cosmic proportion. Father God makes sure the world receives just that. A young woman gives birth to a child who would someday deliver her and all of humanity. Mix in angels, shepherds, wise men, an angry king, some roman soldiers, dreams and an escape to Egypt and you got a story for the ages. Christmas is a sign, an opening to join our story with this wondrous one, to stop being an understudy and get in the play.
The Father will work out the plans for my life…that I know and trust.
What about you?
Maybe there is a major (or minor step) step that God is asking of you, I would love to pray for you. I can’t sit down with you or send you gifts but I can do this…I can pray! You could share here or send to me in a private email here at firstname.lastname@example.org
I be honored to pray with you. If you would love to go deeper than that, just ask for my phone number in the email and give me a call…praying over the phone is fine with me. I’m also on Skype…just look up Jay Cookingham and you’ll find me.
“Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love.” -Hamilton Wright Mabie