Wanting More

 

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“Please sir…I want some more.” – Oliver

In my heart today is an urgency of unsettledness…a mixture of inquisitiveness and hunger. I want more of something…but what? Christmas does this to me. It upsets my routine, overturns my mundane meanderings and consistently causes me to look at the sky. I try to imagine what I would have done with a star announcing a messiah’s birth. Would I leave my land, my comfort to follow such a sign? What affect would a shepherd story and angel songs have on my life? Would the presence of soldiers threaten me away from belief?

What affect do all these questions (and signs) have on me today?

I realize that I am not content with…contentment…that I want more. Not more stuff, not more possessions or material things, no. This is not a greedy, selfish cry for all of that.

The importance of wanting more is all about a Messiah and the deep desire to be closer to Him. I look at the nighttime sky, at all the beacons pointing to Him and wonder how I lose my way sometimes. Those other “wants” gain volume and attempt to drown out my Master’s voice and I cringe that I allow it to be so. Thankfully, His song penetrates through that gunk and reverbs within my spirit.

I believe the Father draws the “want” from us and direct it towards His heart with that reverb. It synchronizes our heartbeat with His, uniting our songs as one. The hunger for more is a God implant on our soul and it leaves us restless until we find our way to His presence.

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. (2) My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? Psalm 42:1-2

Did I mention that Christmas does this me? It does so wonderfully. In a little village God reveals Himself in a powerfully humble and relational way. The Incarnation, the birth of Christ, the announcement of the Good News is both a historical marker and a cry to all time and space.

Including that hungry space in my heart.

Yes…please sir, I want some more…and that’s a good thing.

Are you hungry?

Blessings, Jay

 

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Comments

Glynn said…
I think this is what the original Christmas was designed to do -- to upset the human order, end complacency and create a yearning in our hearts.
Jay Cookingham said…
Amen Glynn, well said my brother! Merry Christmas to you and your clan!
S. Etole said…
Always hungry ... always wanting more. The blessings of the season to you and yours. 
Jay Cookingham said…
Same to you Susan...wise people still seek Him!
bill (cycleguy) said…
You and I must be on the same wave length these days Jay.  I am in this hunger and thirst stage right now.  Maybe it is Christmas doing it to me.  But then again, maybe it is just my heart's cry right now. 
Jay Cookingham said…
Whatever the reason my friend, I hope and pray for that hunger to increase. Bless ya bro'
Joanne Norton said…
While reading yours words I began to just breath harder and more hungrily.  Christmas, yes.  Everyday, all year, a constant.  My outside doesn't look famished... the inside needs more and more and more "Food".
Michael said…
Sounds to me like you, as did others long ago, see the star and are following hard after it, Jay. Makes me smile with brotherly warmth. Merry Christmas...
Jay Cookingham said…
That's the longing of my heart bro'...a Merry Christmas to you.
Jay Cookingham said…
We sure need that don't we Joanne? Merry Christmas Sister!
JT said…
I love the post and the picture!  Merry Christmas!
Jay Cookingham said…
Thanks JT! Merry Christmas!
Ed said…
I am so hungry for Christ right now, and yes, Christmas also does this to me. :)
Jay Cookingham said…
That's awesome my brother...have a Christ filled Christmas Ed!
jasonS said…
With Christmas and a new year coming, I get very hungry. There are things I have believed for and stood for. I want to see them fulfilled and trust Him for greater things. I am hungry for freedom and restoration--not only for me and my family, but cities and nations. It's His desire and as much as I can participate and feel it at this moment, I do. Thanks Jay.
Jay Cookingham said…
That's a powerful response bro'! Praying that you feed that hunger Jason!

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