Desperate for God
For days I have been wrestling with this thought…
When desperate for God isn't desperate enough
Desperateness is a sense of urgency that lives on the edge of hope. It’s chock-full of risk, jammed tight with do-or-die thinking and flirts heavily with a sense of last-ditchness. Desperatus (Latin for deprived of hope), wrecks havoc on a human heart, exerting its influence and putting extreme stress on our ability to trust.
I wonder…is this a good way to approach a God of Hope…with a sense of desperatus?
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.” Romans 15:13
The truth is (at least for me) that I am more desperate than I realize. My heart has areas of numbness because I grew tired of caring and waiting for an answer…my heart of trust was compromised.
I grew less desperate…
And I gave way to self-sufficiency, which didn’t bring hope and just buried my heart deeper into the muck of settling for something far-less than God’s best. This, my friends, is no way for a human heart to live.
When desperate for God isn't desperate enough
My dependence, my desperate need of Father God is what causes me to run (not merely approach) to a God of hope who desires me to thrive/live/move/breathe in hope. Desperatus exposes my heart and reveals that deep desire for more of my Father.
That is the way for the human heart to live…it’s the only way it can
“Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever” Psalm 73:26-26
What about you…are you desperate to live free?
Comments
because I grew tired of caring and waiting for an answer…my heart of trust was compromised.
I grew less desperate… And I gave way to self-sufficiency,...
So much truth in this. Thank you Jay!
Blessings, Jay!